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Honestly, if you know that you are going to school and you need to get something done that requires money, shouldn't you have bring some ? Even if it's a couple of cent or a couple of bucks, I'm sure you could have manage to find some laying around. It doesn't matter how much it cost, but how does it make you feel ... always asking your friend to pay for you? Doesn't it make you feel ashamed of yourself ? Does it make you feel bad ? Any guilt ? Oh, and after when that friend of yours did something nice for you ... did you even bother to say thank you ?

Honestly, it makes me so mad to see people like that. Selfish, always thinking about themselves. Can't even do something nice for anyone! Doesn't know what the word respect means? Honestly, that's not how you treat a friend IF you even consider that person a friend.

Now that I know that kind of person you are, you'll be surprised how much my feelings has changed towards you.

Lately, I've been feeling so ... Honestly, words can't described how I am feeling right now because I don't even know myself. There are days when I feel fine and there are days when I just feel out of place. I stopped going on msn and haven't text much either. I just don't feel like talking to anyone. I don't know why I'm feeling like this and I have no idea what is wrong with me. I have everything I need. I have a loving family. I have wonderful friends. I have a great boyfriend. I have a chance to get an education. I have a dog to love. I have a good job. I have enough money to satisfy my needs. So what is wrong with me ?

I went out on the weekends with a couple of friends and I got to meet new people, and I just felt blah. I had a lot of fun but I wasn't myself. Usually, I love to talk and giggle and get to know the people I just met, but honestly, I felt so shy and quiet AND that's not normal.

This is how my days have been lately, I go to school, go to work and then mope around the house. Next thing I know, a new day is starting and the same thing happens. Blah, I feel mad, angry, upset at the things I see each day... and all I just want to do is lie in my bed, curled up in a blanket and sleep.

And its already February 1st. It's 12:25 am and I should really be sleeping since I have school in a couple of hours ><"